About Dammah

"Blossoming is a subtle act that happens one petal at a time"

My Story of Something More

How I see my life as a bridge builder, a healer*, an apostle of Love, is that when each and every one of us gives to others what we have in abundance (our passion, our vocation, our skills, our time, our money, our gifts) that not only are others' needs met (for God works through us, as us - we are His hands) but ours are met as well.  This is how we create heaven on earth (again). There are many cultures that talk about the perfection of Creation 'in the beginning' and that man, who chooses not to see his place within this cosmic web of interconnectedness is being called back into wholeness (healing), or a state of holiness.  Our individual spiritual health (and as a result our collective spiritual health) comes back into a state of peace, love and joy when we choose to revere all of creation.  From my perspective, it is the lack of reverence in relationships (with self and others and therefore God the Cosmic Creator of us all) that has taken a backseat to ego, that place where we have edged God out of our our minds, our choices, and therefore how we walk in the world. 

My personal mission is to build bridges between islands of consciousness for I believe that the words of Jesus, as the Christ Messenger, are for everyone . We are One people. Humanity was born of One Heart and I believe language and words hold not only meaning but connotation. Most of us interpret from our own personal experience and I believe it is this myopic perspective that has built the fences between us. Fences DO NOT make good neighbors, but bridges do.

​Take a breath, ask God to be opened to hearing something anew, and I hope you are inspired to seek a deeper truth about who you are as God's Love embodied.

*The traditional meaning of healing means “to be restored to health” or “to make whole”. With that perspective as the foundation I believe that the highest degree of healing means to be restored in your awareness that you are whole (not broken) and Holy (Divinely created and connected). So, I use the word healer as someone who supports this restoration.

Backstory

Baptized as a baby, I was raised in a middle-class suburban family in upstate New York. I played piano, flute and kickball, climbed trees, waterskied and sailed, loved butterflies, feathers, rainbows, dancing, and the color purple.... and l spoke Light language/tongues when I was really little (my family didn't know this last part about me!) When I was younger, we went to the Presbyterian church up the street and my parents read children's Bible stories to my brother and me at home. At some point in my early teens though we stopped attending that church, and to this day I don't know why. My mom began 'church hopping' and I tagged along with her where we ended up at a United Church of Christ. It was in this church that I took a confirmation class and gave the minister a run for his money, asking questions that the younger students were uninterested in to say the least!  When the time came, I told my parents that I wasn't going to get confirmed. I felt particularly challenged with some of the language being used and could not affirm my faith with their words.  I didn't seek out anything spiritual for another 20+ years.

Visions, Prayers, and Questions

Many times an awakening happens after something brings us to our knees; an experience that forever changes how we see the world and our place in it.  This happened for me in 2011 after the suicide of my best-friend of 17 years. Although I didn't know it for another year, this was the turning point for me. Once I decided to stop running from the pain and confusion, I turned to God to help me. It was during this time that I began meditating to see my way clear of the clouds of despair that plagued me, and other things began happening too.

The Light language / speaking in tongues that had laid dormant since childhood was reawakened and Spirit told me I was to share this with groups of people and call it 'darshan'. It was also when I began hearing Spirit's Voice clearly and unequivocally. This was a time of waking up to a spiritual center within myself and finding others like me, looking for healing and love in the greatest sense of the word. Many things happened (of which I feel a book will be forthcoming at some point) but in this sharing I am focusing on key experiences that lead very specifically to what I am being called into doing next.  (Time line: 2013 I left my 20 yr accounting career | 2014 I began serving people out of my home | 2017 I opened a spiritual center in NC | 2019 I left the center | 2020-2021 Visions began)

Vision #1

I believe, as a result of an earnest desire to be as close to God as possible, I had a vision with Christ in an ancient cave that I instantly knew was in Qumran. I could even smell the cave. With open arms and his glowing white robe, Christ said it was time for me to be with Him, reconnect with him,  and to meet him here every day.

Vision #2

Months after the first vision, this one came. I was standing in my kitchen with a clear view of my living room and the staircase leading upstairs. I saw Christ's Light ascend the stairs and as he went, He dropped a purple cloth at my feet. I then felt a surge of energy, like a lightning bolt, flow into my left hand, travel up my arm, through my heart and out my right arm and hand.  I awoke with a jolt and my heart racing.

Clarity Please

It was during this time that I began earnestly wrestling with doctrine which for me, weighed heavily in my leaving church as a teen. So many experiences of different Christian denominations left me a bit unclear about Jesus (the man), Christ (not as a title nor a name, but as a state of being), and the Holy Spirit. So I did what was by now a regular habit...   I went directly to the Source and asked God for clarity.  Here is what I heard/saw/understood literally:

Q: What is God?
A: God is Love
Q: What is Christ?
A: Christ is the lev of God in form
Q: What is the Holy Spirit?
A: The Holy Spirit is the whole of God's Spirit in action

Well, that's pretty big, yes?!  I had to look-up the word lev for it was new to me.  Lev, is the Hebrew word for heart with the broader understanding that this 'heart' is where you think and make sense of the world - where you feel emotions and make choices.  Heart & Mind acting together as one.  So lev is God's HeartMind. The manner of Jesus indeed and we too when we choose to follow His masterfully simple (yet maybe not easy) words.

Speaking Personal Truth

Because of the pandemic and not having had a public sound darshan for almost two years, I was being guided to offer this experience in a pool (during that time I was hearing many things from Spirit about baptisms, living waters, mikvehs and the consciousness of water). I reached out to my friends near Charleston, SC that have a pool and a community that potentially would be interested in the experience.  We got it on their calendar, invitation and announcement went out and I planned a trip from NC to SC and post event trip to see my family in Florida. The morning of the event, I was in meditation asking God for clarity around what I was going to do with the unplanned first hour during the introduction and welcome.  I very clearly heard "Redeem the Redeemer Debbie".  I knew instantly what this meant and got prepared for the 15-20 people that would be joining me in a few hours.

When we gathered together, I knew a few of the people in attendance and others were new to me and the sound darshan experience. I introduced myself and shared that I had been in the spiritual community for several years  before the pandemic, but had stepped away from active involvement within the local Charlotte area spiritual community for two reasons. I had a sense that I was being 'called out' to share with other people and communities (travel to them) and also that there was something missing for me where I was.  I shared that it had taken me a while to understand the heartache and sadness and to put my finger on what exactly was missing.  In my experience, there seemed to be a lack of reverence in the approach in what we were doing and a that we as a community were missing the mark; meaning that our job as Love's Creations is to bring this heavenly essence into fruition here on earth instead of planning only for the ascension of our individual souls.   No one was talking about Christ or the teachings of Jesus which provide a foundation for understanding and building. This was a big 'stepping out' for me, to speak it out into a group of people not knowing how this would be received.  To my surprise, many heads nodding affirmation, some people with tears in their eyes and many who approached me afterward to say 'thank you' for the courage to speak a truth that they were feeling too.  I have come to realize that there are many in spiritual community that have walked away from religion because of their experience with the people in the church, and in doing so have 'thrown the baby out with the bathwater' like I had. I saw in that moment, that it isn't a fault of the community, but rather an opportunity for me to bring this into community because I wasn't talking about it either. 

A Miracle for Me

The following day headed to Florida on a different than normal GPS routing, I was driving almost 80 mph on a busy 4-lane stretch of interstate, listening to the radio, and singing MercyMe's I Can Only Imagine at the top of my lungs - so grateful and joyful for the prior day's experience and the love overflowing from my heart.  A car came flying past me in the left lane and kicked up a piece of tire shrapnel that came flying directly toward my driver's side windshield. I saw it almost in slow motion. In that same instant, I saw the hand of Christ come down and buffer the blow, getting between me and the flying object saving me from a windshield shatter/crack, airbag deployment and a potentially deadly car wreck involving me and other vehicles. I began sobbing and gasping for air not only in the shock of the near miss, but even more so for the miracle that just saved my life.  Then, all of a sudden, my hearing came back (I hadn't realized that I had even lost my hearing!) and I heard the lyrics playing on the radio saying "you are redeemed".  I was crying hysterically. Truly I believe that there were angels helping me keep the car on the road because I have no memory of being in control of the vehicle at this point.  A few minutes later, my cell phone was ringing and it was my dad. I almost didn't answer it because I knew he would be worried about the state I was in.  BUT, I knew that my phone ringing in that moment was no mistake. That my earthly father calling was God's way of helping me get back into my body and control over my senses.  So I quickly snapped out of it, got my breathing remotely under control and answered the phone, grateful to hear my dad's voice. He simply was calling to check on me and tell me he was excited to see me soon.  My exit was coming up shortly (I almost missed it!) and when I looked up there was a giant 200' tall white cross on the side of the road! 

Christ Consciousness

During this time, I was highly focused on what some Bible readers understand as the 'red letter' passages in the Bible (words of Jesus as retold in the Gospels).  It is these words that are foundational for me in understanding the new age we are in where the gifts of Spirit are manifesting in full measure... the 'something more' that I experience every day. These words of Christ, in particular, required additional guidance in understanding in a language I could relate to.  So I asked for clarity around Jesus' focus on this as being the the greatest commandment: "Love God with all your heart, and mind, and soul."  This is what I heard:

"To love God with all of your heart and mind is to revere all of creation (pause) and this includes YOU. When you do this, it is natural that you will love your brother as yourself.  (But) you must include yourself in this reverence because God does. YOU are included in God's whole/holy plan, God's grace, God's joy."   If you are struggling with the word 'God', read it this way:  "To love Love with all of your heart and mind is to revere all of creation, and this includes you.  You are included in Love's whole/holy plan, Love's grace, Love's joy."

Easter Epiphany

After returning from a three month stay in Greece a few days before Easter 2022, I had another vision with Christ. In this vision I made a choice to stop 'floating' around on a wooden door in the water (like in the movie Titanic when the ship was sinking fast!) knowing that I had a really important appointment to get to. So I dressed in a simple white dress and was a little concerned that I was unable to find the mate to my earthly shoes. I decided the shoe wasn't necessary and raced out of the door to be on time. I walked into a room filled with golden light, and approached Christ from behind, where he invited me to sit in an identical chair immediately to his right. I took my place, and he took my hand and my heart as I committed myself to walk as one with my beloved. 

Three days later on Easter morning, I went to receive communion at an Episcopal church in the community I was visiting. After the reverend finished sharing the message of the resurrection, I heard that familiar whisper in my ear "but you know, that isn't the end of the story" and I said "I know".  Then I heard "tell your story of something more". This was the beginning of what's to come...

Walking Back Into Church

Walking back into church is literally how Spirit had me begin to see myself through different eyes (once again).  While I was on a subsequent visit in Florida I was looking for a perpetual adoration chapel but the Catholic church in the area hadn't resumed this offering since the end of the pandemic. I was guided instead to go the Sunday service. While in the car on the way there, Spirit showed me sharing Light language with a man in white robes and asked me "to thank him for his words today and for speaking from his heart".  Well, this was mildly alarming because I was stepping into territory that was unknown to me. Not only had I never just walked up to someone to share in this way, it most certainly wasn't in a church setting or with a church leader.

I arrived and found a place toward the back of the church and the music and stained glass windows immediately put me at ease. The deacon began the homily and said that we were in the period of ascension. The words he continued to speak made me cry as they were way more progressive than I ever would have expected to hear in a Catholic church. My heart opened wholly to him as God was showing me where I had placed all Catholics into a box with judgment and assumptions. I knew that this was the man in the white robe that I was to share with.

After mass, I approached this man outside on the portico of the church. Without a single bit of fear in my body, I walked right up to him and laid my hand on his arm and looked straight into his eyes and said "Thank you for your words today". He looked shyly away for a moment and said "I worked really hard to speak from my heart today".  I told him that I felt it and thanked him for listening to his heart. Then I began speaking Light language / tongues to him.  (At this point, I wasn't fully sure in my human mind that the Light Language I was speaking was the same as speaking in tonuges.) To see the expression on his face go from surprise, to wonder, to awe, to tears was one of the most beautiful things I have witnessed and been a part of.  Then Spirit whispered "Believe" and I spoke this to him as well.  Not realizing until a little while later that this was just as much for me as it was for him.

Being Seen

When sharing with a friend that I know through spiritual community about things shifting, and feeling called into a non-traditional way of ministry and mission work, he said he had a pastor friend who might be good for me to talk to.  He said that this friend ministered in a non-traditional way too and that he might understand what I was doing. So he made the introduction over a text message (what did we do before technology?!). We met and shared our stories. I learned many things in sitting with this man and God mirrored to me once again (repeating theme!) how another sees me with their eyes and heart. He shared with me the discernment he had about how the The Holy Spirit was upon me and working through me in various ways. Things I knew, but a powerful and affirming experience to 'be seen' from someone in religious community vs. spiritual community - which was new for me.

The Church is a Body Too

Just 10 days or so later, Spirit was showing me that the messages I have received for people over the years is something I can do with churches as well.  That a church, as a body of believers, can be out of 'out of tune' with that Lev (HeartMind) of God in (its) form. If you are unfamiliar with Christian thought, the community of churches is The Body of Christ. Each church is a cell within that Body and Christ certainly knows where healing is needed. And The Holy Spirit is a bridge of communication.

So ever the dutiful daughter, I asked what church was I to 'listen to/for' and I was pointed to a Baptist church not far from where I was staying with son and daughter-in-law. I sat in prayer and received a page of information.  I then asked what was I to do with this information?  Because normally, people come to me for this guidance, but the people of this church certainly had not. I was distinctly shown to go to the church and share it with the pastor.  Well, I was a little tremulous but I went. On the way, I prayed for clarity and for God to give me the confidence to move forward because I wasn't too sure how I, or this message, would be received.  The meeting was a bit uncomfortable for the pastor and myself, but he was reluctantly willing to listen and he said that I had "affirmed for him what he already knew about his church and felt that is why God had him remain pastor there for so long".  I learned many things in that 20 minute meeting including to believe that I have a seat at the table and that the next chapter for me was about putting The Gifts into service for inner church healing and deeper awakening to what is promised to us when we allow God's Spirit to fully breathe life into all that we are.

Mission

As I begin to share with others the awareness that my work is turning towards mission/itinerant focused ministry (albeit non-traditional), I am cognizant of some of what that looks like yet I don't quite have the words yet to describe it.  I struggle even in saying 'my' ministry knowing that this doesn't feel right because I know it's not 'mine.' So I asked God for clarity and heard "(this is a) catholic mission with a corporal mandate".  The word catholic here with a lowercase 'c' means 'all embracing/universal' and the word corporal means chief/head/leader/guide and 'belonging to the body.'  It is also the altar drape that sits under the chalice and paten holding the communion wine & wafers (the Eucharist.)

Peace in the World is Born of Peace-filled People

This mission focused ministry then is for healing. (There's that word again!)  Healing - health - whole - holy, words that are all related. Experiencing spiritual and religious communities for me is like traveling to different cultures or countries of which  I have done both and will continue to do.  Learning the languages, perspectives and that community's ways helps me interpret between them. What is the difference between a translator and an interpreter? A Translator works with the written word, whereas an interpreter 'deals with the spoken word and is delivered immediately. It prioritizes understanding and communication over perfection.' Meaning an interpreter must understand the spirit of what is being spoken, understand the speaker and their perspective, their heart, their intent with their words.  I interpret for Spirit to people (gifts of knowledge and wisdom as well as prophetic word), for people to Spirit (Christian community understands this as intercession) and between people in our human relationships and communication challenges too.  

What I know to be true is this: That the peace that passeth all understanding begins within each of us and informs the communities within which we are a part of and active in. This force of peace is personal before it is seen, known and experienced in the world we are creating as instruments of the Divine Heart. To truly and effectively restore our world, we must each take personal responsibility for our soul-selves and take an honest inventory of where we as an individual choose to listen to (and therefor act upon) something other than God's Voice of Love in our hearts, and heal it.  It is one thing to say we believe something, but do our actions align every day, with every choice? We are all called to be more, yet many of us don't believe this truth because it would require inner reflection and the willingness and devotion to change our relationship with God, with self, with others on an entirely new level. This to me is the freedom that is promised us. Breaking the shackles that keep us living small is what a deeply personal and intimate relationship with God will do. But first, we must choose this relationship as primary and omnipresent in our lives. A challenging call the disciples faced in their walk too.

What's Coming

I feel we are in a new age giving testament to the Holy Spirit. The Old Testament was about the Father, the New Testament was about the Son, and we are now in a time of gifts flowing forth and love moving as a force among all peoples. ​From a Christian perspective, the only thing that is unforgiveable is to speak against The Holy Spirit and I interpret that as limiting the power of Love, making God too small. This is one way of looking at my personal story of 'something more'.  That 'the story' didn't and doesn't end with the resurrection.​ So as I continue to walk as Lev's instrument/channel/body, allowing it to inform my choices and actions, I am ever expanding my heart, my mind, my ripple. As a Light Spark of God's HeartMind, I offer to you as my brothers and sisters the message that you are everything God says you are, today, tomorrow and always. 

Peace be with you,
​Dammah

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